Masquerade

I've been a little bit busy these past few weeks. hehe. Not THAT busy but yeah, I have a stack of to do task in my list. Hopefully everything can be done on time. Though I'm a last minute person, but at least I try my best to do everything by my own. May Allah will help me through.

Anyway, in this panic hour I didnt want to be too focus on works and neglecting everything else in life because in the end of the day, we will only remember good memories not the hectic schedule. So, I spared some time to be with the girlfriends.

Alhamdulillah, we had a really good time. We had masquerade party just among the girls in celebration of our friendship through out the years and also a birthday of our dear friend. I enjoy this little time that I had with them. I know, that some months afterwards, I will miss them dearly.

Luahan hati

Dunia maya banyak mengajar saya untuk mengawal perasaan marah saya secara peribadi. Saya jujur mengaku yang saya mempunyai genetik cepat marah secara semulajadi. Saya mudah terasa 'annoying' dengan perangai-perangai manusia yang tidak munasabah dan saya setiap hari cuba untuk tidak mudah naik marah.

Perasaan untuk kawal marah setiap masa tak senang sebenarnya. Bila kita pilih untuk pendam semua rasa marah instead of lashing it out to the people, sangat sangat sangat sangat susah. Kadang-kadang rasa je nak tulis rasa marah di facebook atau blog tapi sampai hari ni, saya masih cuba bertahan.

Kadang-kadang bila dah tertulis di facebook, cepat-cepat je delete bila rasa marah reda sedikit. Sebabnya, saya taknak sakitkan hati sesiapa walaupun orang tu sakitkan hati saya. Bila kita sakitkan hati orang, nanti orang lain sakitkan hati kita.

Tapi kali ini sedikit exceptional sebab ada seorang hamba Allah yang saya tak suka sejak pertama kali kenal. Saya tak benci dia tapi mungkin antara saya dan dia tak pernah ada tarikan kimia sebagai kawan. the worst part, semua orang sukakan dia kecuali saya. hahahaha.

Semua perkara buruk terjadi dalam hidup saya sekarang adalah sebab dia. Betapa saya harap dia tahu semua ni. Betapa saya harap dia hilang dan tak pernah wujud dalam hidup saya. Betapa saya harap dia tak jadi penyibuk dengan hubungan saya dengan orang lain.

I wish, my dear, I wish deeply. But that's not the case. It hurts so much to put a barrier and distance to your own bestfriend just because of a single person. It hurts so bad that I wanted to cry.

Blunt

Taking an engineering course may not be hard for some people but it is for me. Little that people know that many students drop out from engineering course. If you think engineer makes lots of money, a popular career or it would lead an easy life, you my dear, is wrong.

I personally took the course because of my biology teacher in high school. She is a nice and warm lady and always inspired me in her class. She told us about career as engineer in automotive industry. Bang! that what makes me chose this course instead of art or literature courses as I planned earlier.

I stick with my planned until the last year of study. Alhamdulillah, I finally succeeded though only as an average student. I am grateful to take the chance to be out of my comfort zone and pushing myself to the maximum limit.

I met wonderful people, I had unforgettable experiences, loads and loads of fond memories, the hard-works seems really paid off. I didnt have any regret for choosing this path. I'm living each and every second of my life with wonderful people that surround me for the past years.

Our time together almost come to an end. but true friendship never ends. May our path crossed again in coming future.