Ilham

It's been quite some time since the last post. The truth is, I have limited internet access and hardly have time to on my personal laptop. Work really took a tool on me. Not that I am THAT busy but it kept me occupy most of the time.

Life seems pretty interesting nowadays - I met new people and made new friends, alhamdulillah. Though I'm struggling to have a balance life; between works, friends and healthy body. I tried to spend at least thrice per week, having dinner with friends. They kept me sane and refreshing indeed. I have yet to find time to jog or join aerobic classes held by the company. That's the most frustrating part. I need to find time for that or my body will collapse in one of these days. Exercising as a friend told me, let our body to keep out the negative ion and recharge the positive ion. Thus, your mind will be full of positive mindset which will translate into positive attitude, InshAllah.


I miss writing actually; I miss to have a good writing to be precised. May Allah grant the ilham/inspiration to write soon. Till then.

Gila

Kita sebagai manusia suka bersangka buruk sesama manusia. Kadang-kala kita mahukan justifkasi untuk setiap perbuatan manusia itu barulah kita berbaik sangka. Bila seorang manusia berjimat cermat, kita katakan dia kedekut. Bila dia bercerita akan keluarganya yang susah, barulah kita cuba memahami. Sedangkan, apa salahnya kita berlapang dada sedari awal dan menerima sahaja tanpa perlu mencemuh disana sini.


Itu hanyalah satu contoh. Banyak lagi contoh yang lain yang tak perlu disebutkan. Saya tidak suka memberi justifikasi dengan tindakan-tindakan yang saya pilih. Saya rela mendengar mulut-mulut yang menyindir sinis dan membiarkan di angin lalu. Biarlah satu hari nanti mereka tahu sendiri, saya secara peribadi penat mahu bercerita kepada semua.


Ah, sekarang pun saya seakan memberi justifikasi kenapa saya tidak suka berjustifikasi. haha. Sungguh manusia pun mampu menjadi gila kerana manusia yang lain.

Hair cut

I've been in a comfort zone for the longest time. Alhamdulillah, I was surrounded with good and humble people for all these while. They keep me grounded and moderate. Even Mum loves all these people (as she knows all my friends).

Then, things change. A new phase of life started. I was put in a different circle of people. A variety type of people I must say. They are nor bad neither good in general. They're just different from me and I'm trying to fit in. 

The thing with 'trying to fit in' is somehow confusing. I was not being myself - as if I was trying to make people to like me which I dont think is right. People shall like me for myself not for some bimbo that I'm trying to be. Thank god, it did not took me a long time to realize it.

I'm still trying to fit in but in much clearer version. I'm not perfect and in the process to be better, InshaAllah.  Family is the backbone but having good companies nonetheless is important too. I pray to Allah to stay strong and istiqamah in everything that I do. Ameen.

By the way, the new haircut make me feel more edgy and young! Well, that's the spirit aite?