The Ripple Effect

When you do one good deed, it creates ripple effect. One good deed leads to another and another. 

Marshall Eriksen: HIMYM S08E08

My senior colleagues have been asking me the same questions for the past weeks; Do you happy working here? Do you like the job? I've been warned a few times that this particular position is not suitable for women. They never hire a woman for the job and this is the first time for over 30 years. So, I understand their concern and where all these questions are coming from.


It's not the toughest job of all. I do think many women out there are capable to perform the job. Yet, I'm here, in this position and I have to make the best of it. The thing is, I do like this job. I like the surroundings. I like my colleagues. Somehow, I'm passionate with the job.


Dont get me wrong. It's not all rainbow and butterfly. I've been scolded by many people(especially from other department) from technician, executive and even up to managerial level. I cried for the first 2 weeks because of the pressure. and I still cry sometime, alone when things gotten out of hand. But I learned through it. As they always said, you'll learn better through mistakes. Just smiles, learned the lessons and make sure to not repeat the same mistake ever again.


So, do I like the job? Of course I do but not because it's full with rainbow and butterfly. It's because of the people and surrounding. and it's challenging - so far. Things are always fun and interesting when it's challenging, aite?

Smile people, smile. It sure will get better when you smile.

Ayam Goreng

Kita selalu melihat orang lain seakan mempunyai nasib atau kehidupan yang lebih baik daripada kita. Kita suka membanding-banding kekurangan yang ada dengan kelebihan yang mereka perolehi. Jarang sekali kita mahu melihat mereka yang dibawah, sebaliknya kita melihat mereka yang diatas. Kita acap kali terbawa-bawa dengan sahabat handai yang membeli beg berjenama dan cara hidup mewah sehingga memaksa diri untuk hidup dan bergaya seperti mereka sehingga menjadi papa kedana.


Kita melihat orang di Afrika, kurus kering dan daif tanpa makanan. Kita mendengar berita peperangan di Palestin dan anak mudanya yang syahid dibedil Israil. Insaf dan syukur, sekejap. Kemudian kita kembali ke realiti, hilang insaf, hilang syukur. Afrika mahupun Palestin terlalu jauh. Mereka sekadar di televisyen dan media masa. Kita tak merasai apa yang mereka rasa. Kita lupa apa yang penting dalam hidup ini.


Seorang makcik bekerja sebagai penyapu sampah di tempat saya. Beratur membeli makanan dengan hanya meletakkan nasi putih dan berkuah kari. Saya diam di belakang, sekadar memerhati. Ketika membayar di kaunter, kakak kaunter ramah menyapa:

"Tak ambil lauk macam biasa kak?" 

"Oh, tak. Anak-anak mintak makan ayam goreng petang karang. Kena berjimat."

Air mata hampir menitik. Hilang selera melihat nasi putih berlauk ayam dan kerang dalam bungkusan. Kata-kata makcik itu bergema di telinga. Bergema hingga hari ini. Makcik itu mengingatkan saya tinggi rendah langit ini. Apa yang saya mampu beli dan buat, tak semestinya mampu pada setiap orang.


Rasa syukur itu, tinggi nilainya. Jangan sekali dipersiakan.

Ilham

It's been quite some time since the last post. The truth is, I have limited internet access and hardly have time to on my personal laptop. Work really took a tool on me. Not that I am THAT busy but it kept me occupy most of the time.

Life seems pretty interesting nowadays - I met new people and made new friends, alhamdulillah. Though I'm struggling to have a balance life; between works, friends and healthy body. I tried to spend at least thrice per week, having dinner with friends. They kept me sane and refreshing indeed. I have yet to find time to jog or join aerobic classes held by the company. That's the most frustrating part. I need to find time for that or my body will collapse in one of these days. Exercising as a friend told me, let our body to keep out the negative ion and recharge the positive ion. Thus, your mind will be full of positive mindset which will translate into positive attitude, InshAllah.


I miss writing actually; I miss to have a good writing to be precised. May Allah grant the ilham/inspiration to write soon. Till then.