Prune

Nothing appeared in the screen after a few US. I prepared myself for the bad news. My mood went down the drain. I cant stop thinking about it. Then again, he motivated me. He always said the nicest thing to keep up my spirit.

'Allah tahu apa yang terbaik untuk kita. If it meant to be, it will be.'

After countless of clinics/hospital visits, I've started to feel redha and anticipate for any results. No one knew about it except for him and our moms from both sides. I dont talked about it to others. I cant; that's me in time of crisis, i rather dwell it alone rather than talked about it publicly.

We went to the last hospital that have the technology required. While waiting, we talked about me being hospitalized and getting ready for an operation. We went inside the consultation room and talked to the doctor with a reference letter from previous doctor. We did not giving up but there is a fine line between in denial and surrendered. We chose to surrender everything to Allah.

The doctor performed the US and wallah, there it is. We saw it for the first time with the heart beat. MasyaAllah. O Allah the Greatest.

I almost had no hope left, but Allah took it awhile from us and reminds us that everything is under His will. If it meant to be, it will be.

It has been such a roller-coaster ride. Thank you Allah for this blessing. I'm in awed. still am.

Raspberry

So this tiny raspberry is playing such a cheeky game with us. We went for US last week and we saw nothing. My heart dropped, literally. The doc assured us that it is something not to be worried and we need to come back in 2 weeks time. My other half as usual made a lame joke; that tiny raspberry was playing hide and seek!


In a way I'm a bit nervous and I really hope everything goes well. But in the matter of rezki, we must put trust in Allah. If it meant to be ours, it will be ours. So, I try to be positive and take a good care of myself. I need to or else I'll go crazy about this.


If anyone that read this, please make dua' for me. keeping my mind at peace aint easy these past days.

Blueberry

So today is a pretty odd day. It starts off very interesting. Of all my life, stripes or lines were never my thing. Not until after tying the knot, oh boy having a double line is something that I looked forward every freaking month.

So today is the day. I met my first double line. I thought about it, even dream of it but today it became true. Allah. I'm in shocked. dumbfounded. speechless.

It finally happened!

Based on my App tracker, it's in a size of blueberry. I would love to documented the journey, hopefully inshallah.

Then which of the favors of your lord will ye deny?
Ar rahman: 3

Thank you Allah.